LO / VE ♥

2011-12-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all of you!
Sad to say I celebrated my christmas eve at the hospital doing night duty.
I am really happy to received the log cake/card and starbucks drink during work. :D

2 more months! way to go.....

2011-12-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

2nd week of my prcp.
Stressful piece of shit. On the verge of giving up nursing.
Still, pray that everything will go smoothly. 11 more weeks to go. :(

2011-12-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

I will update this little space of mine real soon.

2011-11-08T17:03:00.000+08:00

Ive been sleeping like one kind and getting lazier and lazier each day.

2011-11-01T18:54:00.002+08:00

Hey youuuu.

How's your week?

My schedule is packed like crazy!

Did an event for kit kat over the weekend with my lovely girls, Wendy and Sihui. :))

Friday

Rushed to TPY after work with Wendy for casting.

After casting we had our dinner somewhere near beds and then down to cine for kit kat briefing.

Home to change after briefing because I have to work for Glenlivet.

I had a fall while rushing down to work because I was feeling giddy out of a sudden.

Goddamn moody for the whole night.

Thank you Clarabel and Esther for taking care of me.

How nice.

S cheered me up by telling me that I am selected for the job. :))

Saturday

Work.

All of us gathered at S.H's place for halloween preparation before heading down to chijmes, zouk.

I was feeling moody again because I think I have not been resting well and my head spins.

Wendy became my vomit buddy because we vomited together and she told me some rubbish. HAHAHA!

It was good spending time with the girlfriends. :) Judy was there too and I finally met her boyfriend.

Sunday

Hangover and was very reluctant to work.

No choice, met the girls at Vivo and then Aldric fetched us to Sentosa.

Frankly speaking I am not a Sentosa person because personally I hate the sun to the max.

Didn't really enjoy working on Sunday because I was worrying for my incomplete case study.

Rushed home after work, supposed to complete my case study but I fell asleep soon after doing research. :'(

BH is quite helpful because he helped me to do some of my research.

Thanks!

Monday

Woke up at 4am to do my case study.

Praying that my clinical instructor will forget about me but hell nooo!!

At around 930am my clinical instructor came to find me.

CI: RACHEL, ARE YOU READY TO PRESENT YOUR CASE STUDY TO ME?

ME:" i was like thinking shouldn't be a problem as in presenting it to you only." I went, errrr. hehehehe.

CI: NO HEHEHE, YEAR2,YEAR3 GATHER AT HEAD AND NECK ROOM FOR PRESENTATION NOW.

Thankfully everything went well and she said good.

So my Monday wasn't that bad at all. Thanks God.

My last week of attachment.

Yes, finally.....

Im gonna be a staff nurse soon!

yay!!!

I would rather I get up myself than having passerby to ask me whether I am alright.

Like so what if I'm not? What can you do to ease my pain?!

2011-10-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

Health Service for Elderly (HSE posting)

Hi dear, I am back home after staying over at Toh Guan for two days.
I met a really ~~fucked up~~ taxi driver on Monday. Make my blood boil early in the morning, I swear manxzzzzzz. On the verge of crying and head back home because I lost my way over at Jurong area and the taxi driver is really so unkind. =(

I had fun over at St.luke elder care.

They are playing fishing game! ( mad cute right?!?!)

Some of the games they played reminds me of my childhood time.

I really miss staying with my ah ma.

Sad to say, life is just like a cycle.

Honestly, I miss taking care of them.

They are so genuine and lovable.

Back to the ward tomorrow.

Time flies! Next week is my last week at SGH and Im gonna have my PRCP soon.

2011-10-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

Attachment started.
I am not a good nurse today because I get pissed easily, so disappointed with myself.
Something dramatic happened and I am affected.
Everything is resolved now and my life is getting back on track again.

Trying my very best to adapt to the new enviornment, totally alienation to me as compared to TTSH.
Staffs over there are friendly and nice.
I hope I can be a good nurse tomorrow.
Good night.

2011-10-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

Evening dress

Afternoon dress.

I took 10 mins to learn this! Is it nice??

Wednesday:

Had a great night with Wendy and Sihui over at butter and nana.

Had dinner with Wendy at Pan Pacific together with Charles first and then we head over to KPO cafe to look for Sihui.

We were all wasted that night and same goes to our heels. :(

Thank you to my darling Clarissa for sending me back.

Thursday:

Hangover golf event with Wendy, I swear it was crazy.

It was fun working with her and I had a great time.

Jesmond came to pick me up and rushed over to another work.

In total I worked 13 hours that day. Madness right?

He is very thoughtful and bought two bags of food to let me choose my liking.

Very very thoughtful. Thank you!!

Gonna prepare for work again.

Attachment next Monday. YAY VERY HAPPY BECAUSE I AM GOING TO GRADUATE SOON!

GRANDMOTHER'S BIRTHDAY TOMORROW.

I LOVE HER DEEPLY, SWEAR!

My sister came to fetch me for supper last night.

She drives like a G6 and super scary.

I think my driving skill is much better. HAHAHA!!

Okay, we are both good.

I love you sister.

2011-10-04T01:17:00.000+08:00

I know I cant take one more step towards you
cause all that's wating is regret.
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most
and I learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time..
　
who do you think you are?
runnin' round leaving scars
collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart
your'e gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me, who do you think you are?
I hear your'e asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
but I have grown too strong
to ever fall back in your arms...

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember, how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
cause you broke all your promises
and your'e back
you don't get to get me back.
　
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

2011-10-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

A wrap up for the drama week.

Monday is the day that mark the hatred of me because I can never forgive you whenever I see all my bruises.

You can just back off and scram!!

Don't have to call me anymore I will not be answering to any of your phone calls.

Don't expect me to forgive you now.

ARGHH!!!

I went to the library alone to read for two hours, awesome.

What else....

Work on Wed and then to Filter to find Wendy, Judy, Sihui and Mable.

I got dead drunk that night and hangover the next day. Quite sucky..

Event on Thursday with Wendy, Clarabel and Sihui.

Supper with them together with Jacky and YW.

Friday work again.

Zirca with Nina then to Filter.

Okay, I'm gonna read again before heading to my bed.

Ciaos.

2011-09-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

Just met up with my bff and she told me about her accident.

Thank God for not taking her away.

I had a bad experience working at OT because I saw the ugly side of human nature.

Am I ready for work life?

No, I don't. Can I still be in the arms of my mom?

Can I just stuck at the age of adolescence whereby I don't know how to feel for things, don't have to work hard for what I want?

Sis is getting married, I cannot see her everyday and she will be having a different status soon.

I miss fighting with her over barbie dolls, I miss snatching her food, clothes and our laughters.

I felt as though there is a huge mirror right in front of me reflecting how messed up my life is.

I will be entering my adult life soon, more decision making and more responsibility.

Time turn things ugly.

Yr3 : I had palpitation while waiting for nyp website to load.

I stared at the screen for a moment and I went "OMG, IS THIS MY RESULTS?"

I was on cloud nine, I did very well for sem 1.

A great achievement and satisfaction.

Last lap to go and I must graduate next year.

I will have a long good rest before my Geron posting.

Rest my mind, definitely.

I can be a happier person.

C'mon, cheer for Rachel.

Have a great weekend.

2011-09-18T13:17:00.000+08:00

I forgive for the person you are now because I believe you were once hurt terribly too.

I forgive for all the lies you created, I forgive for all the pain you inflicted.

I forgive for your wildness during weekend.

All these forgiveness lead me to the current situation now.

Why must you play with a genuine heart?

I know, Never expect Never assume Never demand. Just let it be. If it's meant to be, it will happen.

You torn me apart. You destroyed my life. Congrats.

What hurts the most is to smile to fight against your tears, I did so when I was working and I let it all out at the staircase after work. Sucks, really sucks.

I am so ashame to be a woman, where is my pride and dignity?

In my next life, I wanna be a man.

I will be a better person than you and I will stay faithful, I will never be like you.

I need to heal myself.

Bring me away, I hate reality.

Lemme be an escapist.

I don't wanna love anymore. It hurts so terribly and I'm done.

2011-09-11T20:49:00.000+08:00

Time flies.

No more working for 13hours/day, No more partying for the time being because tomorrow is my first day of attachment!

Back in uniform, hello to dear patients.

I am fear for your return.

2011-09-06T17:34:00.000+08:00

Work is super duper boring.

Have been asking myself " why am I working so hard?"

Like a serious, why?!

Dear everyone, I am so proud of myself today.

hehehe!

Okay back to work.

Kill me please.

byezzz.

2011-08-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

YES YES YES, HOORAY!
I'm like finally out of prison!!
No more papers, no more burning of midnight oil!
I'm having my two weeks break now.
After my two weeks I will be having attachment at A&E.
Sound so cool right? Hope I will not get freak out when I see trauma cases.
My blog is a boring shit, I know. Should I change to Xanga?
I saw my nuffnang and I was surprised that you viewed my blog.
What for eh? Want to know some information about someone?
Will not reveal anything, find out yourself.
- your insanity is my sanity-

Goodbye :)

2011-08-13T17:07:00.001+08:00

Friday marked the last day of school!

Yay, I'm moving on to another stage of my life.

Excited max.

Can't wait for my A&E,OT,Geron and lastly my PRCP posting!

Right now I just have to concentrated on my exams first.

I'm posted to Jurong for my geron posting!!!

Thank you management..

7am shift means I got to wake up at 4am.

Nice right? zzzzzz

Okay whatever. I can't wait to be a nurse!

Byexz.

2011-08-07T19:20:00.000+08:00

Feeling so tensed up due to the lack of revision and exams in 2 weeks time.
I hope I will be motivated and ace them all.
Alright, I'm going out to get a breather before reading.
I miss partying.

2011-07-30T14:47:00.000+08:00

To come together as a class with indivudual character is really not easy. However, I still made it.

Hey!

Here to share my joy with you people.

Are you ready?!

FAREWELL PARTY.

I'm going to say goodbye to NYP soon.

In like another 2 weeks time?

18thAugust will be my first paper and then attachment for 6 months.

A very warmth hearted and touching party I would say.

Majority of them teared while giving their speech.

I am the only strong woman who did not shed a tear!

Proud of me right?

Usually I am a very vulnerable person and often let emotion takes over me.

Tadahhh! Proud of myself,managed to fight against my tears.

I was sitting next to Jaseema and she wailed like a kid, ahhhh heartache.....

Saw the envelope above?

Inside the envelope is all filled with letters from my classmates!

I love reading letters~

Of course, it is the content that counts.

I would like to say thank you for all the encouragement and wishes to my dearest NR0906.

Initially I find it really hard to blend in with you guys because personally I am a very unfriendly person.

You guys took the initiative to get to know me and walk me through the lowest point of life.

Really appreciate that.

We won't be seeing each other that often in the near future but we still must keep in touch via facebook okay!

Buzz me up if you want too! Get my contact number from the class list!

Nice party, I enjoyed. BIG HUG to my awesome classmates.

Oh yea, before I forget.

The videos too!!! SOOOO TOUCHING!

I love my poly life and I'm gonna graduate with a big big smile!

Also, I'm going to take these memorble moments together with me.

Thank you guys!

****

Went to casting together with Clarabel.

Hope we will get the job :)

Babe, stay positive.

27th July:

Happy birthday to momma.

Hope you like your present and the surpriseeeee. :)

I love you and thank you for bringing me up.

I am the first and also the last who wished you.

Love me more la okay?

Can show your love and concern by letting me to have more freedom with friends.

Allow me to go home late.

Something like that. HAHAHA. LOVE YOU MOMMA!~

***

Last Friday, I went to the library to study for 6 hours together with my Godly woman.

This is seriously crazy and I borrowed 3 storybooks.

They brought me to Bedok and then changi chalet at night.

We went wild and I'm superb happy to have them in my life.

***

Last night, we went wild again....

2011-07-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

Life is good. Went butter with bel and wendy that wednesday. Wendy got drunk :<
Healthy weekend with my gfs and J.
Went to church today with P and S. ( finally )
They studied while I slept. Massage aftermath.
Now I'm gonna head out again with N and Q.
Good day.

2011-07-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

Had a fun night with the girls.

what do I really want?

2011-07-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

So busy!

Anyway, I'm done with my FYP!

Went to Orchid Park secondary school to teach CPR.

Good feedback from the teacher over there and high possibility that I will ace it!

:):):)

After fyp I rushed down to TMCC for golf event then went to meet Shiyun. ( Last Friday )

This week:

Napfa, aiya fckk it okay. I failed, predicted.

Standing boardjump is a huge no-no to me.

Not only that! Irritating inclined pull up failed me too.

I didn't even try. Okay, 1/2 pull the most. ( after that I gave up. :(( )

Ran 2.4km, a sense of accomplishment because I'm in the third position in class.

But so what! Overall still fail, I think.

Busy with my nursing lab theory. Madness.

This coming Tuesday is my skill practical.

Hopefully I can passed the two skills.

*por pi por pi*

As per usual, rush for event during weekend.

This morning shoot is a torment because I only had three hours of sleep.

He sat there waiting under the scorching sun throughout the whole sessions and got bullied by the fallen stems.

How cute, somehow I felt as though everything is too late.

No matter how hard I try, it will just fade over time.

No one is going to give me their blessing.

Have been asking myself

what if he cannot handle stress again.

what if my family and friends cannot accept him.

will he be able to take up that challenge or give up?

I totally have no idea.

I know I am a fucktard in a rs because my partner always climb over me.

Aiya fck everything.

I'm prepared to stand alone.

Afterall, I am a happy girl these few days because I'm loved by a man whom I love deeply.

I know everything is too late. I will wait for you to prove me wrong and seriously hope that you won't disappoint me this time round..

I love you...

2011-06-26T18:07:00.001+08:00

I'm back from Hangzhou.

Felt so happy for my cousin as he finally make a name for himself as a chef.

He is a top chef in Singapore and was wanted in Hangzhou.

He will be back next year after his bond. (:

Way to go cousin! So proud of you.

Yesterday:

Met up with Jesmond for dinner then to powerhouse to celebrate Kahming's birthday.

It's a blessing for me to meet up with them, my long lost primary school friends.

Jesmond came back to fetch me home.

Thankyou mountain!

Tomorrow will be day 1 of week 11.

Presentation, tests. HEAVEN.

zzzz

I need to stop vomiting, diarrhoea.

Dehydrating soon.

FCUK IT.

Gonna read.

- sometimes, the best feeling in the world isn't falling in love, it's falling out of love with someone who never really loved you.

2011-06-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Tuesday: Went over to bff's place. She taught me how to cook. So nice of her right?
Gonna cook for my family some day.

Wednesday: Work at KPO, then butterfac with girlfriends.

Thursday: Work at beerfest. Wow, so many people over there and I get to know a few babes. They are hot :)

Friday: Work at kazbar. Jermaine came and we had dinner together with my brother.

Sat: Gonna head out soon and will pack my luggage when I'm back.

Will work less and focus more in my studies when I'm back. It will be a brand new start, a brand new me.

- The truth hurts, but it doesn't kill. Lies may please, but they don't heal.

2011-06-13T13:05:00.000+08:00

Many, called me the dumb, the fool, the silly and the strong.

I know how these labels brought to me after my name, I know.

After such a huge melodramatic hoo-ha in my life, I still cannot accept the fact that I'm actually still in this pathetic plight after so long.

I know, the naked truth is always better than the best dressed lie.

I jolly well know everything but I am just acting the otherwise.

I know God will not give you a plate of success if you have no hard work.

At that point of time, I thought I am doing well as a partner of yours.

Am I loving too much that I almost got blinded by you?

I was trapped by your words.

Days followed by weeks and then month passed by.

Have been asking myself,

didn't I fought hard enough for you, didnt I salvaged enough? did I gave up too lightly?

The words of yours slapped me awake.

I am being place in a vulnerable position that anyone can easily replace upon.

I am tired of chasing after you, sometimes you got to chase after me too.

After a twisted life for 10 months, I realized that " love is not a noun to be defined but a verb to be acted upon"

You showered me with words but zero action.

You're not that great afterall.

I am so naive to take your words for real.

*********

Have been drowning myself with work recently.

Went to Ngee Ann poly for an event then shoot on Sat.

The theme is romance but I just can't bring out the feel.

Hope it will turn out to be nice.

I'm smiling but I'm so close to tears.

You're such a disappointment.

2011-06-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm done with week 7.

Two tests within a week is seriously no joke.

I passed them all!

Thumbs up*

Went to Breezebar with Jean and Sharon on Friday.

Goodness we did something very wrong that night.

All of us said" okay, its time to change our chilling place"

Any good recommendation?

When you are studying suddenly you just feel like working.

BUT when you are working, you feel otherwise.

How contradicting life can be.

Cheers; welcoming my week8 and then hello to my two weeks break.

By then, bye Singapore.

" Dear Past, thanks for all the lessons. Dear Future, I'm ready"

2011-05-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

Event for tiger crystal finally ended. :))

Sick of doing event, might do shoots with Daisy next week.

" An ex should stay an EX. They're an EXample of the wrong love & an EXplanation for why you deserve better! "

I am good this week because of this sentence.

3 homework undone.

blame myself for playing too much during the weekend :<

Right, I gotta go because after homework I'm going to visit my grandmother.

I'm reaching the top.

I should enjoy every smile and every tear, because the most beautiful smile comes after the most painful tear.

Misses for you is getting lesser and lesser each day.

I've forgotten how you look like and the most painful thing is I can only recall the painful memory.

2011-05-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the constant reminder that life is still beautiful.

Finally met up with my girlfriends.

I'm glad to have you guys by my side. Much loves!

Had a drink with Kaixin this evening.

Agreed with her that we should not depend on a man.

" You can't lose what you never had, keep what's not yours, or hold onto something that doesn't want to stay. "

Goodnight. I hope you can return me my lock soon.

2011-05-22T17:22:00.000+08:00

Friday:

Event at Soul.

A boring one because club is never the place for me.

One of the customer told me: Yesterday I came they say is " Happy deepavali"

Today " Hari Raya"

At first I can't catch what he wanna say, in the end I got it and I smiled.

Okay, at least someone managed to cheer me up. A little bit.

Went to Chijmes with Leslie aftermath together with Aeries.

Sat:

Event at Singapore Arts Festival.

So nice of Travis and Kive because they helped me to......

haha, thanks anyway.

Zirca after work.

YAWNS, tomorrow is MONDAY.

Help me pls.

Lab skill coming soon.

I think I pulled my muscle because it's freaking pain! :(

2011-05-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

I don't know this is my how many days without you.

All I know is that life have been pretty miserable because I'm been forcing my way through life.

Anyway, I've shown improvement.

I can eat and sleep now.

I can laugh and no more tears.

I can even play mahjong.

I'm glad that my friends have been always be there for me.

I've let go of you, all along I was too blinded by love that I missed out the good ones.

I will slow down my pace and value myself more.

I told myself " it's better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one"

My life ahead will be better. :)

2011-05-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

It's funny how you thought you meant something to someone, but then they go and prove you wrong.

2011-05-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

I am still waiting for you to make the first move because I'm really afraid to make the first step.

2011-05-09T20:35:00.001+08:00

Nevermind, I still love you.

2011-04-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

school sucks because I felt as though I'm isolated from the world.
I need to pull up my socks before everything is too late.
Boyfriend is on his way here and I need to get myself ready, to walawala tonight.

2011-04-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hang on there! Inhale and exhale. Long weekend is awaiting for you, two more days!
Can't wait for it because you know my timetable sucks max.
Four days of lab can seriously kill. :'(
On top of that, hardcore adult nursing 3,4&5. Goddddd.
Today is still alright because I met my sunshine Andrea after school and mj-ed with Nina and Shane (:

Time to drink milk, ehhhh before you start questioning yourself. It's HL milk. hehehe.
goodnight world.

2011-04-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my dearest Ken! (:

I don't know what's wrong again, I could only upload one photo. (?!!)

Celebrated his birthday at Sentosa villa.

We had a fun time blowing balloons and decorating the place.

etc...

Anyway, its a blessed birthday with the presence of relatives/close friends and those birthday wishes.

Most importantly got me. : )

I don't know why but somehow I got myself drunk and thankyou birthday boy for helping me to apply cream on my legs :)

School starting tomorrow.

I HATE IT.

Goodnight.

2011-04-15T16:42:00.000+08:00

Just what the hell is wrong with my blogger/laptop?

Sometimes I need to born-to-be-rich to get rid of all my problems.

Pabie came to find me yesterday and we went to Bedok 85 to dine.

His tyre punctured while we were on our way back to Sengkang.

He kept whining non-stop that this is his first time after driving for 7 years experiencing this and he can't believe it that his tyre actually punctured. zzzz.

I seriously think that I'm a jinx because I'm quite down with luck recently.

So sorry Pabie!

Kenji is our saviour for the night.

:) :) :)

Blame my blogger/laptop otherwise I am able to upload the photos.

I went to Andrea's place aftermath for mj session with Nina and Jiawen.

Went out again after mj.

A routine for the week and I totally enjoyed their companion. :)

Nice girlfriends.

Now, I need to find my ways to crawl to Tampines to get my things.

I just hate my period ttm.

2011-04-13T14:44:00.000+08:00

The worst encounter ever.

My mistake, My bad.

Fisherman Ken, I love You.

I'm truly sorry and thanks for being here as well as Andrea.

***

2011-04-10T14:02:00.002+08:00

17th April is nearing, what should I get for him?
My problematic laptop is currently with Aidan now = no photos.
No photos how to get my things done? :/

Finally done with attachment. No more waking up early in the morning for the time being.
Anyway, congrats to my da jie. She gave birth to Keona yesterday! Princess Keona is so chubby!!
I wanna give birth too, haha I'm just kidding. Don't wanna go through all the pain, okay for the time being.
He bought for me a new spects and I totally love it ttm. I even wore it to sleep =x

Anyway I really had a bad time learning driving, can I just passed it next week?
Please, I don't wanna see my instructor already.

Ken said that one of his birthday wishes is to wish that I will passed my driving. Hope his wish come true. hahahah!

I had a bad day yesterday but everything ended so sweet till the moment I closed my eyes.
:)

2011-04-06T10:52:00.000+08:00

Its Wednesday, my last week of attachment!!

Time flies.

I need a break from everything because I know I can't take it anymore.

Year 3 is going to be a stressful year. ;'(

I don't want to grow up please!

Gonna prepare myself

going back to hospital in like 1 hour time?

I'm exhausted. Seriously I am.

2011-03-28T22:35:00.001+08:00

Look at his hair!If got bird landed on his hair sure die because his hair is way too spiky!

Sedentary lifestyle over at Taiwan.

I miss having those carefree days and many $1000 notes in my wallet.

I look as though I'm freaking rich unlike in Singapore. :(

Now we are all busy with our school/work :(

I'm busy with attachment and soon will be going back to school.

After graduation I will be stepping into adult life, my two years of bond.

Goodness.

Morning shift tomorrow. Kill me please.

2011-03-22T00:55:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I'm back from Taiwan. It's mad freaking cold over there but I had fun with my love ones! Currently I'm busy with my attachment at ttsh and I can only look forward to my pathetic 1 week holiday starting from 4th April.
Tell you guys a joke. I fell down today:( All thanks to Felicia because she long bang me ( by bicycle ) and in the end both of us fell on the road. She betrayed my trust! " come la, I steady one. " In the end lei? :'( ended up with big big big blue black on my thigh and some abrasions. I will be getting back my results in a few hours time. Good luck to me oh.. Nights people. I'm working afternoon shift tomorrow and dear is fetching me after work. How nice (: nights!

2011-03-13T17:15:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the lack of update because I've been working for the past few weeks. Hell, work is seriously no joke man. Hate it but on a happier note I pocketed myself some pocket money. In a few hours time I'm going to Taiwan with my family and my dearest Ken luah. Kind of worried because taiwan is on red alert. After Taiwan I will be having attachment at ttsh again.

Hope that you guys will have a great week ahead. :)

2011-02-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

World, please have a good laugh at me. I lost everything within a night.

I am a joke of myself.

I am such a loathsome that caused so much unhappiness, worries to my loved ones.

Right now I just want to pen down my thoughts because I can no longer pretend/suppress this kind of feeling.

I hate Ken for the pain he inflicted in me.

I hate the pain he gave and after he can walk off just like that, especially during my battle with exams, the period which I need support the most.

We had the sweetest Valentine and the next moment we had the worst separation ever three days later.

He said " everything was a lie "

this sentence really bring me down so badly.

I baked a cake for him on Valentine, my mom texted " the heart was a bit damaged but I'm sure you guys will have the sweetest Valentine"

Yes, I knew the heart was a bit damaged but I spent hours baking it; with my love, effort and despite my tiredness. We had the sweetest Valentine, definitely.

First attempt, failed. I tried again and again and again until that damaged heart is the best I could do.

4.30pm a delivery man delivered bouquet of roses to my place.

I had a wide smile upon receiving it, the note you wrote is way too sweet that I can't stop myself from smiling.

Everything was just too great.

I am just so fairy tale that I thought everything will be alright, so long as I do my best.

I took your words seriously about everything you said regarding your past " you firmly won't look back etc"

talk about your work, we came up with a solution of how to compromise.

That time you cried so badly in front of me and ask me not to leave you, we could start afresh, naively I took it serious and gave it a try again.

Now, everything is otherwise.

You said I have a lot of " why "

why this why that.

The problem is you are the one who do everything that always leave me with lots of question marks.

I can ask no one other than you.

You can't think rationally when you're tied down with work and the stress load.

Now, I loved and fell so badly. Where are you?

Everyone, don't ask me to cheer up.

I will be alright after the rain stop.

Note to self: You must lead a better life and settle down with a right man who can reciprocate your love.

2011-02-23T11:51:00.000+08:00

4papers down! tomorrow will be my last paper, psychology. it's gonna be easy. Right, yes gonna be easy.
hopefully I can clear all my modules.
I'm at funan with mom now, yea stupid funan again. I'm so gonna buy a new lappy soon.

2011-02-19T12:03:00.000+08:00

I had the best Valentine in my twenty years of life.

2011-02-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

Totally no mood to celebrate cny due to endless quarrels. whatever, he said he will change and we shall see.
Exams are nearing.

2011-02-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

Today is quite a bad day because out of all classes only my class have to attend school, lab.
My wallet is not with me because I left it in his car yesterday and forgotten to bring it home with me. Class at 8am, woke up at 7am. Pro or what? I think I am a superwoman in my dream because it is impossible to fly to school within 30mins ( give me 30mins to prepare ). Done preparing at 7.45am after that rushed over to take LRT, (fyi I only have $10 note with me at that point of time) wanted to buy standard ticket but both machines only accept coins. I desperately asked strangers for $3 coins in exchange for $10, some are helpful unfortunely they don't have enough coins and some are fuckedup because they scare I will con their money. For goodness sake, why would I do that?Tomorrow is cny I will have plenty of red packets, why would I run after your $3? Some Singaporean just can't think rationally. Oh yea, before that I even approached mama shop uncle and you know what he told me? " I got no cash because I haven start business" Don't tell me you dont have petty cash dumb!
Another thing, up till now I still don't know my research method result. -.-
ok I gtg now. Enjoy your reunion dinner with your family and hope that you guys will have a blessed cny (:

2011-01-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

I want to throw away my laptop! Not serving me well! CNY is round the corner! Can't wait. Hehehehe! You know what? During Research Method exam my laptop cannot connect to the school internet AGAIN! Everyone is graded except me :( I have to wait for my lecturer to mark and then he will get back to me. Tomorrow is also the day I get to know my new group members.
Got to sleep now. Goodnight.

2011-01-27T22:32:00.001+08:00

Hi all. I passed my STATS! @.@ stats! YAY! Fuck my laptop please, suddenly cannot connect to the internet and I went to E plaza alone! Yes alone! _|_
Tomorrow is Pharmacology presentation and Research Method. Oh laptop, please fucking get connected to the school internet bitch.

Good luck to me tomorrow and I will welcome cny with a happy face. :D

2011-01-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

Stressful. School work is up to my neck now and I can feel the tension of my muscle pulling.

In a few hours time, I will be sitting right in front of my lappy for my Statistics test. Please make it easy for me.

Photoshoot on Saturday for Fresh Kon competition.

Hopefully by the 31st Jan you guys can start voting for me already.

Please do so alright!

My lappy battery is a bit sot sot.

Should I bring my cable along?

Right, have to study now.

Tmr: Statistics

Friday: Pharmacology presentation and Research Method. :(

Also, 31st Jan I will know my new grouping. zzzz.

2011-01-18T21:57:00.003+08:00

My Birthday,My family,My BestFriend&Nursing.

This Brownie is from Weiqing and she bought me a sexy top. hahahaha

Went to Kushin Bo to dine on my birthday. The crab there is superb big and delicious.

I sincerely thank those who wishes me on the dot when the clock strike 12am.

Advance wishes, belated wishes, all accepted. Thank you.

感谢！

To you, thank you for your effort though is not something big.

I clearly know who are worth for me to cherish.

Sad to say in my heart, you are the one.

Note: Never dedicate your life to someone whom you know you have no future with.

Gave up friends and to endure all the pain, I guess by the time you are back to reality, its already too late.

失望。

I look weird with nude face, I know.

Nursing:
Sometimes Nursing can drive you crazy on the amount of stress you are facing, sometimes you will feel a sense of accomplishment when you are being recognized and sometimes you will feel like giving up because you are not up to standard. Nursing is never easy, I swear. Salute those nurses out there please!

Despite the overwhelming stress, Nursing also made me smile. I passed my nursing lab skill test today and did well for presentation.:)
Finally put down this heavy stone that I carried for so many weeks.
Thanks God.

Congrats to my little boy again! 二姐以你为荣。

Dental at Paragon tomorrow, medical sociology presentation tomorrow and Bio practical test on Friday. After that I'm done with this week.

Next week is a stress week again! Presentation non-stop. zzz.
Statistics please be nice to me. I'm always kind to you by bringing laptop to tutorial. Don't fail me. I love you stats. Hope you love me too. Same goes to research method as well as pharmacology.

3 more days to weekend! =)

2011-01-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

Don't go away!

Dearest readers, please don't go away!

I'm currently very very very busy with my school work!

*sigh

Next week is a hectic week because I've got 2 presentations, Skill test as well as Bio pract test!

I'm going berserk soon :(

Went to meet Xueqi after school and then to Weiqing's place to have a mini birthday celebration.

Happy advance birthday to Nina (16Jan)

They are really cute and I enjoyed myself.

Gonna wake up very very early to meet Yanling tomorrow.

I really pray that I got time to study.

Can't decide whether I should go clarke quay now or to stay home to finish my project. Shall see how later.

Good luck to Yanling!

2011-01-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

Everything is more or less settled. More stable now. In two days time will be my birthday. I'm aging. You made me look forward to my birthday though everyone knows I hate my birthday as I will be older by a year.
***
Dyed my hair at yihui's place together with sharon. had a good time laughing at each other. Good night.
Miss you.

If we continue this way, we will make it to future.

2011-01-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

NYP OPEN HOUSE!

NYP open house on 06.01.11

Kind of fun but tiring because we are the tour guide guiding the secondary school students around our school.

To be honest, I don't even know where is block R till yesterday!

So I must thank them if not I will never know where block R is.

Seeing them in uniform make me feel so old.

I'm hitting "2" at the front in like 5 days time.

I hate aging!

Thankyou NYP for giving me this opportunity to take the photoshoot and I love it a lot.

My best present.

Lab theory test done, pretty easy. :)

Week 14 is a hectic week. :(

He is a loverboy again. Cheers!

2011-01-05T19:05:00.001+08:00

We are together because we love.

We love that's why we compromise, give and take.

However, I still believe that it can't be me alone doing all these where the other party just happily receiving.

I've given my best shot and to take it or not is up to you.

There's no point begging in love.

Don't tell me you are who you are because if I can change for you, why can't you do the same?

Don't tell me our mind don't suit each other.

YOU TELL ME WHERE ON EARTH CAN YOU FIND THE SAME MIND AS YOURS?

LOL

We are created differently that's why all of us behave differently.

Stubborn will lead you no where and this is that I have learned.

If wanting to part and finding all sorts of irrelevant reasons/digging up the past.

YOU ARE A LOSER.

If having quarrels, what you does is not to contact/not wanting to meet, you're simply AVOIDING.

I don't understand why during courtship everything is so smooth sailing.

I don't understand why you're giving me craps when I am giving you my best.

I don't understand what went wrong.

Don't ever take me for granted, I just don't want to be mean.

I'm just tolerating because I still love.

If you can give up that easily, then I must say Thank you.

All along you're just wasting my time.

Do remember that I accompanied you through the storm, when you're nothing to something.

When you're a wasted gambler to a upright man.

I salvage doesn't mean I am a slave with no feelings.

I salvage because I believe we are meant to be. We met each other through a long way, overcome many many obstacles.

Why must you let me think twice when the moment I want to speak to you?

Simply because you never use your heart to try to understand me.

A little, can trigger your temper.

Why am I always feel so elated when meeting you but the moment you arrived I will feel scare?

Reason as above.

I knew you're taking all the benefits for granted, but why am I still holding on?

Reason is very simple, I care.

Don't give me any reasons just to shun me away.

Bullshit. I know something is amiss but what exactly is it?

Betrayal is not a big hoo-ha to me anymore.
So thrash it right to my face.

Yes, I might cry like a dog but this is the way I grow.

I don't like to drag things BUT remember this THINK wisely and don't regret.

I am very sure and confirm that this is the very best I can do.

Nothing can go beyond this. WHY? Ask yourself, do you worth it?

2011-01-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL-HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Did an event at siloso beach on the 31st. Countdown with the unknowns can be quite fun (;

Went to class chalet on the 30th. We had fun playing games etc.
Tomorrow will be my first day of school. Very shag because my first lecture is at 8am, pharmacology lecture -.-
Okay, I got to do my project now because I got meeting tomorrow. Very sad.
How's your 2011?

2010-12-30T11:54:00.000+08:00

To be honest, I would rather go back to the time where I used to admire you; looking forward to your sms reply.
I brought this upon myself but I can proudly say that I've fought hard and it's time for me to let go now.
Perhaps you're not the one for me; vice versa.
I am tired. No more of this nonsense again.
Whatever you say because you still don't know me well.
Very Well Done.

2010-12-27T15:25:00.001+08:00

How's your boxing day?

Enjoy unwrapping your gifts from your beloved ones?

I went to gym with beloved on the 26th after that went to friend's place for MJ.

3 lip gloss inside my beloved Victoria's Secret black bag, 3 lovely tops and 1 body spray.

I bought for him a watch from French Connection (:

Extremely adorable!

I woke up and found myself alone under the roof. :(

Boy and mom went overseas

dad and sis busy working

baby working, too

me stuck with school assignments and upcoming lab theory exam.

Gonna start mugging soon but where's my motivation?

Click on my nuffnang ad pls.

2010-12-24T11:43:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas In Advance!

Decided to start my day early to enjoy the Christmas season. : )

I'm so excited! What about you?

Went to Jurong point with Ken yesterday to shop for last minute Christmas pressie.

He wanted to buy a laptop but to no avail.

Hah, we're going to chalet later and guess what we bought?

A PILLOW AND A BOLSTER!

Hahaa, we had a fun time carrying them around JP.

Also,he bought for me a lovely dress : )

Should I tag along with sis to JB later ?

A piece of paper pasted behind your back and went round asking friends to comment about you.

Yes, that's what we does during our psychology tutorial.

The ticklish feeling behind my back while they were writing make me even more curious about the unknown comments.

Ta-dahhh, my comments not bad right?!

Where is my camera charger?? :(

Why always play MIA with me?

So many things to do before Christmas.

Before I mark an end to this post.

Hereby wishing all of you a blessed Christmas, happy receiving and giving presents.

Be safe (:

Merry Christmas in advance!

2010-12-20T14:42:00.001+08:00

I am going out with that crazy bestfriend of mine, Felicia.

Okay I know I need to spend time to hit the books but I really really dread to do so.

Adult nursing presentation is love (:

Everything will be up to my throat when school reopen.

Wanted to give Andrea a birthday surprise on Saturday but failed to do so because I got work at 10pm and gonna leave at 930pm. birthday girl is taking her own sweet time because she doesn't know is a surprise!

Then, she texted me asking why didn't I wait for her etc.

Anyway, hope you had a blast at your surprise BBQ.

Earlier part of the day I drove Andrea out to visit the doctor.

IMMA SO SCARE.

Luckily all of us are safe including the car if not Ken gonna slaughter me.

He is very well-behave over the weekend and I really enjoyed being with him.

Okkkay, I'm going to prepare now. I will be back with my hair done.

Damn sick of my hair.

YAY! NO MORE UGLY HAIR DURING CHRISTMAS (:

2010-12-13T18:35:00.002+08:00

What's on the table?

Pressie!! We celebrated advance Christmas at Birdy putt on a Friday night.

Finally get to see my girlfriends. Happy ttm! Loves~

I know my hair CMI.

Perm or rebond?

I know Ken wants me to perm but perm will make me look older!

Cute ass.

Know what?

I'm missing them now :D

SAT:

Went over to his place ( west coast ) to eat dinner with his family.

As usual his dad look kind of fierce. Good thing is I managed to suppress my nervousness and continue to eat like a normal human being.

I don't know what am I talking about. I must be insane.

After that he went to meet his friends to discuss about business stuff while I went over to ( idk where ) to meet Andrea.

Weird thing is both of us stay at north east but we meet up at the west.

Crazy or what? hah!

I think Imma crazy girl. Lemme show you my hairrrr.

So ~~pretty~~ right?

Goodness. I think I can go to curly hair competition with those aunty.

Confirm chop chop sure win. haha.

I fell asleep unknowingly during lecture.

So unglam!

Anyway I'm waiting for the clock to strike 7pm because I wanna watch Channel U~

Ciaos!

2010-12-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

I am so stressed up because I did not do my revision regularly. Serve me right.
Presentation on coming Thursday, signing bond on Tuesday which means I will skip lecture and that's even worst! Pharmacology lecture at 8am and I'm still happily typing away now, gonna walk like a zombie in school. Confirm. Serve me right x2.

Ken is a darling and treated me like a princess these few days. *double like.
Happy birthday to all the December babies!
Last week in school and I'm gonna be a santa rina this coming weekend at lot 1.
Come down and support me (: have a blessed week ahead. Cheers :D

2010-12-12T03:27:00.000+08:00

My 900th posts.
Rushed home after school yesterday because girls gathering at night. Settled down at birdy putt. (:
A nice catchup. After that poopoo fetched me home.
Today:
Had dinner at his mum's place, met WeiQing aftermath. (:

2010-12-06T18:28:00.000+08:00

Ever since semester 2 started, life have never been easy. We were thrashed by Statistics as well as research method modules. I felt that these two hard core modules should not be included in my course because we will never get to use it. ( I feel )
1st Dec is Riordan's birthday, the day before he received his scholarship again! So proud of him. :) Wanted to bring him go shopping today but he went to church camp. Nevermind, next time then!
Last Saturday went to JB, really miss the Thai massage there.
Driving this morning, overslept. Woke up by a weird dream, dreamt of me staying in a luxury house with 5 maids and unlimited food supply. ( duh! ) Rushed to the toilet to void, as I was voiding halfway suddenly there are many hamsters popping out running hurriedly on the floor. I was screaming like a mad woman but no one attend to me. As I was desperately dashing out of the door, I accidentally stepped on those hamsters and blood started to splash everywhere. Ran out and saw all my maids with hamster head and my unlimited food supply became hamsters food. Horrible dream. I urged to void when I woke up but I was very scare to go to the toilet. :(
Chop chop and hurried down because my instructor is waiting for me downstairs. Booked my TP already. (:
I think I should scold Ken because I think he is the main culprit. Yesterday while he was reading newpaper, he showed me this article regarding animal abuse. I think is about a rabbit been kill tragically by a China woman. Just nice rabbit represent the hamsters. zzz
Anyway I wrote this post on 4/12/10
6/12/10:
Went to Elieen's wedding bell yesterday. Congrats to the newly-wed. :)
School today, dropped my phone :((( after that went to NEX with yihui after that went to meet Andrea for lunch. Now I'm waiting for DZ to online so that he can help me download OS or whatever.

That's all for now. Have a great week ahead.

2010-11-29T19:47:00.000+08:00

ROAR I'M GONNA MAKE YOU HUNGRY!

OMG, TYPICAL SINGAPOREANS!! Hey, I'm not one of them kayy! Actually wanted to go in but it was too crowded. HAHA!

My blog is plain boring, teach me how to be an interesting blogger please!

Some jokes to share with you guys.

Lecturer: plus take back the nutrients

I heard " plastic bag the nutrients"

HAHAHA OMFG FUNNY RIGHT?!!!

I told my classmates, Jas and Yihui both of them also laugh!

Another one:

Guy A wanted to do his standing board jump but he kept swinging his hands with his knees bending.

Guy B bth because guy A is taking way too long so he decided to go behind him and "clip" his PE shorts using his fingers ( apparently guy A doesn't feel anything because he likes to wear XL shorts including his underwear.) SO, after a long time swinging he finally decided to jump and he jump his shorts off because guy B clipped his shorts!

When he landed on the ground he was half naked!! HAHAHAHHAA!

When Ken told me this I was laughing non-stop! Because guy A is his friend and I'm gonna laugh hard at him during the next gathering. ( ken faster arrange! )

Another one:

One big fatso is a big bully.

One day, he asked guy A to go inside the rubbish bin( the big green bin) and guy A stupidly went in!

After that the big fatso bully cover the top cover and poor guy A got his hands dandling in the air through the hole! HAHAH~

Another one:

During Ken's chinese lesson his teacher asked them to write a compo, rebellious ken and his group of friends were listening to MP3 ( at that point of time ) and while listening they disturbed their teacher by raising up their hand.

LAOSHI: how to write " DA BIAN? "

how to write " pi gu? "

Stupid chinese teacher really write da bian and pi gu for them. zzzz!

TODAY:

Went to SGH to do my medical checkup.

Sigh, draw blood is so painful :((

ANYWAY MY DEAREST BLOG READERS!

I PASSED MY FTT ON 27 NOV 2010!

CHEERS :D

2010-11-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

23/11/10:
Happy birthday sis! Sis brought us to Furama Riverfront hotel to dine! The food there is really mouth watering. YUMYUM! thumbs up~ Celebrated her advance birthday at home last Saturday. Guess is really a great opportunity for her to catch up with her friends as all of them are working adults :) Received lotsa present and she is a happy girl (: sad to say, she's a year older and gonna be categorized under aging population soon. hahaha!
24/11/10:
Went over to Boonlay at approximately 11.30pm to fetch nainai because nainai is going to United States!
Bon voyage nainai, enjoy yourself. Hope that the food there will suit to your liking. (:
Oh yea, she hugged me before she check in!!!! (:(:(:
Awwww, so sweet right?!
25/11/10:
Those people who own an iphone, kindly download fruit ninja because this is a super duper addictive game. Please play the arcade mode. I'm going to beat yihui's score SOON! Still trying hard. Oh yea, statistics lecture is really damn hardcore, overloaded with information. Cannot download the file from my CMS, any kind soul willing to send it to me?! Please! :'(
I'm going to IT fair tomorrow. Anyone going??!!

2010-11-22T20:01:00.000+08:00

Had my first meeting this afternoon with my group members.

Gonna present UTI on week 9, which is 3 weeks away from now.

ARGH! So unlucky, played black/white with my group members and both Misliana & I have to present

peritoneal dialysis because we are the odd two! :( ( nevermind, take it as I'm able to share my knowledge with the class!)

Peritoneal dialysis presentation this week, but a short one (:

Another conflict arise, goodness.

What a year! Anyway it's ending real soon.

Christmas is round the corner! yay!

I've got the Christmas feel now.

waiting for your arrival-

2010-11-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be beautiful. No Monday blues. Cheers :)

2010-11-19T17:50:00.001+08:00

I'm back with pictures!

Am I bombarding too much?
Aidan bought for me card reader and ta-dah!! HAPPY LIKE ONE KIND!

It's Friday, so what? Ken got to study for his exam tomorrow and I'm gonna be good. Study together with him is the best of the best solution that I can think of. Bonus, I got tutor in Statistics! She can teach both Ken and I Statistics! And just nice Ken is having Statistics exam tomorrow! Thanks Weiqing for teaching us!

Ken is good to fetch me to school today and he iron my shorts for me, too bad I did not wear it not because that shorts doesn't fit with my top.
Had Research Method lecture this afternoon and this lecture really arouse my interest in this module, I don't know why. Hopefully my enthusiasm in this module will sustain. Hehee.

Driving after school, learned 3point turn. I know is not tested in TP. He said if I can master this well, parking should not be a problem. Quite fun eh;)
Gonna nap now while waiting for him to bring me to makan. Hungry max.

Sis's birthday party tomorrow! Finally bought pressie for her. Hope she will like it. Ciaos!

2010-11-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

This broken heart is for my best friend.
I don't know how to brain wash her but sad to say I'm on the verge of giving up on her.
Goodluck to you if you were to be back with the guy who wants to tarnish your life.
You're sucha naive girl to actually believe in his words. Bullshit to him.
Aiya, whatever. No mood to blog about anything.

2010-11-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

1st day of school! 8am to 6pm. Totally S.H.A.G! My lab lecturer is not that bad afterall. I like her because she gave us answers. HEHEEE, Ima lazy student. God is good because tomorrow lecture is at 12! but not that good because gonna end at 6pm. Did some re-shuffling for subgroup members. One of the member cry because of some issues but I think me and rin got no choice already. Draw lot is the best choice. Hope you understand. Anyway, for those using blackberry readers. Do you know that bb can measure your temperature? ;D

2010-11-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

I've lost a piece of me.

2010-11-10T20:53:00.001+08:00

Videos to share with you guys during the event! Hope it can load.

Readers! I wanna cut my hair so freaking badly! It's so long and I find it hard to manage. Any nice salon to recommend? Met a challenging child today. Unsure of his diagnosis but he's really a rare case as in how he want us to handle him. After my break Shahida was like telling me " just came back from weight lifting" I was like ???!!! what you talking. After that I stroll to her cubicle and I saw Guiru keep pushing the child's head up and down. She said she have to do that to calm the child. The other nurse said " ya, the maid told us to do this".

me:" then where's the maid? "

nurse: " Home. His maid very fierce. Can order his father to take clothes"

zzzz! (wth)

The world change already. Yachong, Guiru and I took turn to push the child's head. God, mad tiring!! And you can never imagine how we did that! Guiru is mad funny, she said how I wish I could buy a spring so that his head will bounce automatically. I find it scary to nurse the child because things will get horrible when he feel agitated. Example, he pulled out his tracheotomy just now. @.@

Did my bed side presentation this afternoon. She keep saying good good good but everyone told me that even if she say good she also will give you a low grade. Well, I hope not. Anyway I really have to take God for the admission of this girl because when I know that I need to present on Thursday(IDK why she ask me to present today-.-) I was like thinking " die, I super not confident. " Not long after I got new admission which is her! Happy to say that I can answer all questions because I know my patient from head to toe! Phew~

My dad is superrrr irritating keep asking me to eat eat eat. aiyooo!
My friend keep saying I skinny but I don't find myself skinny at all. I feel fat. :(

* Afternoon shift tomorrow.

2010-11-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

This week is seriously a bad week. Ken is falling sick. Attachment seems to have a long way before it marks the end. I'm not feeling well either. Somehow I overcome the feeling of having to make up on this Saturday already. Case study still stuck half way. Bed side presentation on Thursday. Now I really have to use the word FML! Studying is way too stressful. Got to run now to do my case study. Please take care of your health! Health is the key to everything. :)

2010-11-08T14:08:00.002+08:00

O.m.g. I accidentally pressed del and my post is gone! Now I have to type all over again! I don't know why updating via blackberry cannot upload photo. (Why?!) Did an event over the weekend, nice knowing the babes there. Tell you guys a joke. On don't know Friday or saturaday evening, Ken and I went over to Ion to find Felicia. While walking to the smoking corner, I slipped and fell onto my knees. (Stairs) what a JOKE(!!) Both of them laughed because I fell in sucha way that is very slow motion. I think they are crazy. ._. Right now I guess I have to agree with the majority of you "Monday blues" got my very 1st mc and there goes my saturaday! Needa pay back and good thing is I'm alone. W.T.F yesterday is seriously a torment. Went to west point hospital to consult a doctor. The injection can really kill me pls!

I'm over at nai nai's place resting. Hopefully I can recover asap and go back to work tml. :(

2010-10-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hi, I know my blog is pretty boring because I have zero photos to share with you guys. My cable is playing hide and seek with me. Sob! Nonetheless, I'm back with stories!! Where should I start? Right, I shall start with my nursing life, again. Last week I went to gynae ward as I mentioned in my previous post. Well, gynae ward is more to abortion, reproductive disorders, ectopic pregnancy many more. I shall start with Abortion. Right from the start I'm pretty curious about how abortion is done and I want to witness the procedure and ta-dah I witnessed all the sinful scenes and now I'm going to share with you guys. My very first encounter of Abortion is with a young 17 year old Malay girl. She seemed to be embarrassed and she gave me a feeling like " quickly abort, I wanna get out of here" Okay, even if I'm her I might felt the same way too. From all the videos you saw doctor use a equipment to scrape right? But for her case, she have to deliver her dead fetus herself because she's in her 2nd trimester. Doctor will insert cevergen ( wrong spelling, I think) to open up the Ose? ( don't know how to spell but pronounce as ALLS ) in total there will be 5 courses. Slowly they will feel the contraction and wanting to pee. Water bag burst then after awhile the dead fetus will deliver out like normal vaginal delivery. Some deliver the fetus in the toilet bowl some on their bedside. I tell you, it's so freaking CRUEL! It's so easy to abort your baby but I tell you, you're drop dead sinful and of course irresponsible. Many many women came in and out as though they felt nothing. Abortion abortion lor, that kind of attitude. A simple acknowledgment to the consent and the poor baby will be killed due to their "mother's/father's" mistake of having that "fun moment". Prevention is the best solution, if you want to have sexual intercourse please wear condom or whatsoever to prevent the girl from getting pregnant if you don't intend to have one! walao, the baby so poor thing :(
Some mother(s) came in because of miscarriage, grieve over the dead fetus while the other side happily aborting away. : (

*Thanks Ken for your listening ears and thanks for coming down just to accompany me to eat. Sorry for venting my anger on you when I'm in foul mood. Anyway I had a great weekends with you and so sad that we have to depart now because of our hectic schedule ahead.

Supposed to do an event this weekends but it's canceled. Happy to say that I'm still getting my pay. :)

My last two weeks at KKH. Thennnnnnn, back to school :( stressful.

2010-10-27T21:33:00.001+08:00

I'M.MEETING.FELICIA.FUNG.LATER.COOL.

2010-10-24T23:45:00.001+08:00

My attachment at obstetrics ward just ended last Friday.

Couldn't find my ward on my first day of work at KKH, ask around and then they ask me to walk straight turn right etc..

I felt as though I'm filming for some horror movie. Totally scary. zzz.

Well, attachment at Obs is quite boring actually but I love to work at Nursery!

See those newborn babies totally make me double happy!

A very warm welcome to those babies! Joyful day~

But when I'm outside with those mothers I felt so pain.

Brave mothers, I witnessed a hemorrhage (PPH) case on my last day of attachment.

Totally omg, a pool of blood gashing out, pale face look and kept worrying about her twins babies.

Mothers are so wonderful. :)

Going to Gynaecology ward tomorrow.

More on sad case because it's more on abortion etc.

Where is my camera cable?!

2010-10-20T19:52:00.005+08:00

Supposed to meet qing yesterday but I couldn't make it. Meet up soon again girl : )

Couldn't take the itch anymore, went to consult a doctor and he said I ganna " se" don't know what. In medical term we call it Herpes blah blah blah. Forgotten already. It's fucking itchy and painful. MC came in the wrong timing especially when I'm having attachment! MC more than 3 days need to pay back 1 week. Man, waste time. Forget about the MC and went to work. -.-!!!

This cup is designed to be slanted and my grandmother wanted to hold on to the other side of the cup because she scare will topple Ain't she cute? (:

Happy birthday grandmother! Wish that you can eat chicken everyday and also, stay healthy!

**
Time flies! Today is Wednesday already, how fast! Managed to persuade my lecturer and she changed the case study presentation to tomorrow and gg I haven start preparing because yesterday I fell into deep sleep after taking the medicines! Ken is really helpful because he helped me change my bedsheet, pillow case etc and woke up early in the morning like 5++ just to fetch me to work! How kind. Lecturer showed us placenta today! Placenta is something like transport the nutrition, hormones and deliver oxygen to the baby through the umbilicus cord. It smells and soon after I felt giddy. Lecturer said some mother will keep the placenta either to bury or cook to eat! Ewwwww, disgusting to the max max max! Okay I think I should put my pen down and crack the egg. Oh ya, I bathe baby today. A baby girl : ) I'm going to nursery tomorrow. YAY YAY YAY! Love baby so much~

* hope I will recover soon :( this is so torturing. God, heal me please.

2010-10-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I seriously want to update you guys about what I'm doing now but I got not much time left to sleep. So, I shall make it snappy. Currently I'm posted to KKH and I'm in the nursery today. Infants there are mad adorable ( I really have the urge to bring them home! ) I changed,fed take temperature for them. Awwwww, cuteness. : ) However, attachment @ KKH is never a fun thing because all the case study will bring your mood down to earth. Great, lecturer is really cool in torturing us. She want us to present our case study on Wednesday!~ ARE YOU CRAZY?! Well, accepted the fact and I chose Caesarean Section. I've decided to take up Sponsorship. SGH, TTSH OR KKH?!!

This is so itchy and painful :'(

Does anyone know what is this? I have this redness at the back.

got to sleep now. Morning shift tomorrow. Shag.

2010-10-12T19:38:00.000+08:00

Attachment at IMH ended last Friday.

The feeling of bidding goodbye to the patients from IMH and from general ward is so different!

Two of my mates teared.

:'(

11Oct:

Met up with my gfs.

Had a great time catching up : )

12Oct:

Driving again !

Note to you: There's nothing big of your position you're holding now.

2010-10-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

Today is my first driving practical lesson! I had so much fun driving, u-turning etccccc!!~
I can't wait for the next lesson~ wanted to upload the pictures but my sister took/lost my cable. FOOK!

2010-10-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

WHY NURSING HAVE SHIFT WORK? :(

Life is kinda mundane.

work work work and more of work.

On a happier note, this week is my last week of attachment at IMH.

Two attachments down.

I so wanna go back to school but I know I will be very stress up with my school work.

Projects projects and more projectsss.

Adult nursing 2, Pharmacology 2 O.M.G

Received my results. Okay, kind of happy because I got A for my attachment which is 14 credits.

Something I must be very proud of. HARD WORK... GPA improved.

Now, I so don't wanna go back to school.

wtf I don't even know what I want.

Okay next week is my 1 week break and the week after next I'm posted to KKH for 1 month.

Tough attachment and I can foresee I will have a hard life over there because:

1st: very far from my place. Imagine if I'm on morning shift, got to reach at 645a.m. Which means I need to wake up at bloody 4am. Thankyou God. You're so kind (:

2nd: Have to answer a lot of questions @#$@! my friend almost fail this attachment because she cannot answer the questions!

3rd: I'm very scare of twins! No twins in nursery pls!

****

Went to Gracia's place yesterday. Kai le 1st month celebration. Awwww, sucha LOVELY babyboy:)

Ken said I'm crazy because I find infant,elderly and insane people cute.

zzzz! I think maybe is because I never say him cute and he's jealous.

HA, MUST BE :D

***

Felicia MIA already. This bullshit girl.

I need to sleep now because I'm going to kill the 161 bus driver tomorrow, I will camp at my house busstop at 5am.

HA, I'M KIDDING.

Maybe I will stare at the driver for wasting my precious money on cab.

&%^&$^%$ thankyou ah driver.

YAY! MR NG CALLED AND I WILL BE DRIVING ON WEDNESDAY:D

-goodnight.

2010-09-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

My day 2 in IMH.

I'm afternoon shift today.

Actually there's nothing much to do in the afternoon.

Accompanied the patients to play mahjong and one uncle actually punched the other uncle right in front of my eyes. That was like totally "OMG" !!

Sad to say the one who got punched on the face actually cried.

I fed one patient today and I was amazed by how fast he can eat, he threw tantrum at me because I fed him too slowly. Am afraid that he will choke. zzz

After feeding I went round to cut nails for them and they really thank me from the bottom of their heart.

"thankyou missy, you are good *smile"

Their smiles are so genuine.

2pm, serving medication.

One of the nurse will be at nurses station preparing their medicine into medicine cup after that she will pass the medicine cup through the space between the glass and table and the other nurse will be standing outside to receive the cup and ensure that the patients swallow down their medicines.

WHAT WILL YOU THINK THE PATIENTS WILL REACT?

RUN AWAY?

HELL NO!

They are like so happy to eat medicine.

One of the patient is hell mad cute. He will imitate the nurse.

EG. TAN AH BENG then the uncle will shout TAN AH BENG! TAN AH BENG! TAN AH BENG!

If TAN AH BENG did not walk over he will walk around to find TAN AH BENG to eat his medicine.

CUTE RIGHT?!!

Played games with them and they are so clever because they won so many many rounds.

Eg,chinese chess.

My heart really reach out for them because they are so caring.

Those patients who are able to ambulate will help the patients who are bed ridden to change their diaper!

They are so organise and they treat that place like their home.

Some even mop the floor!

30cents can be a very big thing to them and those cards game which you can purchase it for 70cents?

Ken fetched me after work and I drove his car again.

Met Weiqing for a short while and she gave me a very good lobang. Thanks girl!

Got to sleep now and I'm looking forward to tomorrow. :)

2010-09-28T11:45:00.000+08:00

What is your first impression when people tells you about IMH? siao people? siao lang keng? Etc..
I changed my impression of this institute which I carried with me ever since I knew about IMH yesterday.
Actually they are very smart people and they are very helpful. Cracking brain of how to commit suicide/escape is really not an easy task. Imagine you're being locked up in a cell room for many years, you too will think of ways to escape right? Some of the patients there is due to stress in studies Etc and they are smarter than me and you. Some are degree holder. I must admit to the fact that I got kind of freak out when I saw them yesterday. The moment you open the door they will dash out. Throw things, shout and banging. Salute the nurses over there and don't make fun of those nurses who work at IMH because not everyone have the courage to work there. Shame on you if you tease on those workers who work at IMH. So, after mingle around with them I felt so much comfortable and I seriously find them adorable. Two of the uncles caught my attention. One of the uncle loves to draw and the other loves to colour. One of the uncle will draw for the other to colour. When the uncle colour out of the drawing the other uncle will teach him to colour within the drawing. ok i got to run. yihui is waiting for me. ciaos! Afternoon shift today :)

2010-09-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

Hello my dearest blogspot. I'm sorry for not posting photos because my laptop is with ken. I'm updating from my blackberry. God has been good to me because I've cleared my first attachment and what's coming up next is IMH. Yes, you did not see wrong. IMH. Nainai fell down and I got superb worried for her, ken and I brought her to NUH when she finally nod her head to it. Next day I'm walking like a zombie during my work at polyclinic. Friday is a tedious day for me because I got work at night. Attended Esther's wedding on sat and went down to my work place to get my pay in the end went home empty handed. Same reason as ever, no cash. Whatever~ sunday which is today, I did event at merlion park from 2pm-6pm. Faymond is kind enough to let us off at 5pm. I hate sun! Got to turn in now because I need to wake up superb early tomorrow. Like crazy only. Zzz
I know I still have to smile tomorrow even if I don't like someone. Sigh...

2010-09-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

Cool, time flies!

In a blink of an eye, it's Wednesday already~

Two more days to the end of attachment.

I seriously can't wait!!

Today still okay, not so bad because I'm at room 1.14.

Nurses there are friendly and they allow us to take a seat!

Goodness my heart sank to the bottom when one of the nurses came to the room asking another nurse to take a look at a baby because the baby's mother accidentally dropped him/her.

Poor baby, hope you're fine.

I lost my $50! I think my house got money ghost because this is not the first time already.

Ghost, return me my money can? I can change my handphone cover or top up my ezcard or buy many OCK chicken wings or buy KOI or save up another half for my handphone bill or I can use that money to donate to charity! Ghost, I am kind hearted you see. Please, I'm gonna take a nap now and I will return to see if my $50 is in place. There's no reason for you to reject me because I've state my purpose of using that $50.

If you don't want me to spend my $50 also can, I can deposit my $50. Money grow money! ( interest )

Whatever! I will never NEVER put my money on my table ever again.

Stupid.

NAP NAP NAP!

WHATEVER!!

WALAOOOOOOOOOO!!!

2010-09-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day of attachment at polyclinic. Kind of boring because it's only orientation and also more on observation rather than hands on. As a follower, there's nothing interesting. 4 more days to say bye to polyclinic attachment. I don't like this attachment because I know none of my mates and I find it hard to mingle around with strangers, I don't like to put on a fake smile just to make my life easier. In short, I hope I can be more open to strangers and really really hope that my attachment will come to an end soon. I hate special posting because there's really nothing much we can do and I really really dont like to be overloaded with information. -.-!

2010-09-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

18/09/10:
zouk.
19/09/10:
mj.
20/09/10:
ATTACHMENT.

2010-09-17T14:54:00.013+08:00

She cried wryly for one night long due to the mistakes he

made from the past...

Woke up from tears and her heart still aches, tried to distract

herself by thinking the capital of a mos burger and they sold for $6+

how much do they earn by the end of the day? A zinger burger, fish

burger.. What if one day she is a boss, how is she going to have a

good management of her employees. Etc.. All these thinking doesn't

help. Instead, those images of his past kept flashing through her

mind vividly. She can't defeat to the fact that is the very first girl

who do him wrong and the mistakes that he made is due to the

flop of the relationship and now the current girlfriend have to

accept everything including his very wrong doing. She can't defeat

to the fact that the guy actually shed tears for the girl who is a

betrayal. The girl is really something that can changed a very good

guy into a stray guy. If time could turn back, she would ask the girl

to cherish him and not to take him for granted. End the relationship

with a good recalling but not the thinking of betrayal when

memories flash back few years down the road. If time could turn

back, she would pray to the Angels asking them to protect the good guy from going

to such places and stop him from drinking. If time could turn back

and they knew each other earlier( him and his current girlfriend),

the relationship would not turn into a tragedy, like now. Right now,

the girl just hope that the guy would do everything within his limit

just to make her happy. No, happy is not the word she should use

the word euphoria instead.

The girl said: Trust me, this is so heart wrenching.

2010-09-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

I went to Jurong point with Luah's nainai while Luah is out there to work. Now, I'm gonna work while Luah is studying. Ciaos!

2010-09-13T14:59:00.000+08:00

My new Love : )

Deprived of sleep!

Had been working since Thursday all the way to Sunday, goodness.

I need to hit my target! That will be my motivation to work harder.

Going to work later and all the way to Friday except Thursday.

Hope I can survive through the boredom.

Attachment next week.

Polyclinic first then to IMH.

It's gonna be interesting, I hope.

I'm superrrr hungry now but I'm kind of lazy to walk to rm.

I think I'm going to sleep (like again).

I'm fat :(

2010-09-11T13:02:00.000+08:00

Inspiration...

Did an event for Grand Prix Season Singapore last week.

I had a hard time walking with my sore feet. Sobs :'(

Aftermath I went to lucky plaza to have my lunch then to Paragon for my dental appointment.

Dentist advice me to extract my wisdom tooth after that I will be granted a certificate that many army boys are dying for which is 5 days MC!

Should I should I?

I don't want to have a swollen face.

OMG OMG, SHOULD I?!

Roamed around FEP while waiting for Ken.

Went to TAKA and I bought blackberry for the both of us.

Thanks Ken for the gucci wallet (:

G-O-N-E.

Went to Sling then to Ratchada to celebrate Felicia's birthday.

She K.O soon after.

HAHA, we are good :D

Exams over, LIKE FINALLY LORRR.

Didn't have enough sleep because I kept worrying bout my paper tomorrow.

Ken is so kind to pop by during his free time.

Went to work on Thursday and Friday.

Omg, still so chaotic.

I think I should persevere because it's impossible for me to get a day job now because I cannot commit due to my school.

I shall pray for the best and now I think I should grab Ken to have lunch with me before going to that event and work at night.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2010-09-08T17:37:00.001+08:00

Argh, I'm so dead.
Tomorrow is my last paper like finally, after that I will be a diligent writer to update my blog everyday.
Recently I've been busying with studies, event and outing!
Most importantly dating.
Finally got my bb white, I'm loving it~
I've changed my number. If I did not send you my new number is either I lost it or someone deleted away.
Do inform me via email. : )

2010-08-27T16:58:00.001+08:00

( from Ken )

I'm getting so stressed up with the reality of my coming exams.

Right, just four days time.

I've got a mixed feelings, I want it to come faster but on the other hand I hope time will go slower.

Faster to my freedom and slower so that I can revise more.

Salute to myself that I still have the mood to club on a Wednesday night with my babes.

I got no time to wait for the photos to load.

So, I will be back during my free time.

Study hard. Ciaos.

2010-08-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

Time flies. This is my last week before my exams.

2010-08-18T01:02:00.002+08:00

No Subject.

Ken is superb nice to fetch to school today for my photoshoot at 10am.

The photographer is having a hard time to snap all of us because he is pressurized by one of the lecturer.

You have 5 mins left, 1 min left etc.

He is so hungry and stressed up. Anyway he is superb fussy like " tilt here a bit, no no there a bit" " her hair!! put it behind, I want a few strands of hair at the side" Need to stand for like 5 mins adjusting until he is happy then he will snap.

Okay I know he is trying to portray his professionalism.

Tough on you, he almost fell while adjusting the lighting and he is so so so hungry.

haha. Kind of cute : )

And so, his professionalism took 5 hours of my time and then after that I hurried to Mac to find Ken and Pearlyn.

Congrats to Ken that his interview went well and he got the job.

He got so many jobsxzxsszxxz man.

Iron man, not only that he's studying too.

!@#@$@#@!. Right, just don't fall sick will do.

After Pearlyn left, we went up to the library to study for awhile and then back to his place.

I helped nai nai to fold " kim zhua"

Such a cute nai nai. very havoc, everyday go out.

That day when I was superbly mad with KenLuah, he tried to coax me by cooking egg soup.

Well, at least it turn out nice and I forgave him.

HAHAHA :D

Now I'm craving for his egg soup! So, should I act like I'm superbly mad with him so that I can drink my egg soup again? Shall see how. HAHA.

Last Sat:

I worked at Supper with two babes; Felicia and Linda.

Quite an experience to work there with good pay.

I thought after work can relax already but Ken Luah got superbly drunk and I nurse him.

Nah, just kidding.

Just regret never snap pic with him so that I can threaten him to post online.
Eh, wanna see merlion or not?

I know what he's gonna say next.

" cannot hor, later shu seh"

HAHAHA.

I need motivation to study!

31st Aug is drawing nearer and nearer. I needa study study study.

Rachel must study study study.

STAR-DI.

I see many stars now and how am I supposed to study?

I'm gonna whack you hard, Adult Nursing.

watch-out.

KOI can be your best friend if you need to slurp.
: )

2010-08-10T20:01:00.001+08:00

Ken's_Rachel's

Ken and I helped nai nai to prepare the bean sprouts for dinner. In order to speed things up, I challenged Ken.

me: Let's see who got the most heads and tails!

Ken: Okay.

We were rather serious until Ken realized that he lost to me and he started to cheat! Initially I thought how come he's so kind, wanted to help me to clear up the mess until he started to giggle or look at me ( can't remember ) then I know he took my heads and tails! He is super disgusting. Loser must do forfeit which is to shout to nai nai saying" NAI NAI WO AI NI, NAH NI DE DOU YA" after that must take picture. This Ken Luah is so naughty he doesn't want to do forfeit and he claimed that he did not cheat zzz =.=!!! Anyway, I find him rather cute. (:

He surprised me by asking me to go to his car boot. I was too shy at that moment and I hide behind him. I don't know why, and I find myself very nonsense. Thank-you :D

Why you buy for me famous amos? Because you're famous enough.

( I smile to myself though I know it's just sweet talking)

I still remember that day he told me he can't sleep because he is still missing me when I'm just right beside him. (:

Sunday: Full of bird shitsssss. Cannot take it, so agreed to wash his car with him. It's my virgin experience and it totally drained my energy. Anyway, I find it quite fun but tiring.

That day, forgotten when I tagged along with Ken and his friends to stock up their socks. His friends are superb hilarious and cute. They're still single, ladies hurry! Grab them! hahaha!

My conversation with one fat pig.
            Feli-cia        ♥     says (7:50 PM):
*u crazy why suddenly
*wanna go jog
*siao charbor
                      R    achel     says (7:50 PM):
*i feel fat
            Feli-cia        ♥     says (7:51 PM):
*i even more fat
*you wan i slap u anot
                      R    achel     says (7:52 PM):
*ya
*u fat that's why jio u jog
            Feli-cia        ♥     says (7:55 PM):
*fk u

HAHAHAHA! Madness.

2010-08-10T00:29:00.000+08:00

Yawns! Yawns! I'm getting lazier each day. Sleeping syndrome is hitting me :/
Sometimes I just don't know how put my words in a nicer way to tell my best friend that she had chosen the wrong path.
Sometimes I just don't know how to tell her about how naive she is.
Sometimes I just want to protect her but she is too strong headed.
Sometimes I just want to discourage her from * but I know she won't listen.
Sometimes I just want to tell her how much I cherish her but I don't know how to express it out.
Sometimes I hate the way he treated her/ humiliate her and the way he love.
Sometimes I just want to tell him straight to his face that " you're not that great as what you think"
He brainwashed my best friend and now I feel that her life is chaotic but she thinks that this is the better way.
Things are not that easy, don't regret. In life, we have no time to regret just hope that you've made the wise choice.
Sis said that since she wants it to be this way then you must well just support her. Because I know my best friend too well, I tried to knock some sense to her before her boyfriend tick her off again.. she just won't listen. I want the best for her, I want her to prove him wrong, I want her to change her thinking, I want her to be a better person, he is somehow tarnishing her moral, she might think he is the best but I think they are not meant for each other, the reason why I care so much is simply because.. ... ... she is my best friend.

2010-08-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

I can't upload pictures!!
today is my last day of year 2 sem 1.
I've yet to revise for my exams.
Had a great time with Ken, laughing away.
P.S MAN~